Life is not some kind of a straight line that is easy to get pass through it and live on If you had that kind of life, enjoy it
Be grateful for that Not all of the people in this world can have it that way
Some don’t have faith to live that way; they’re dead Some don’t have strength to live that way; they’re hiding for the rest of their life Some don’t have chance to live that way; they’re living in sorrow Some don’t have knowledge to live that way; they’re left behind Some don’t have friends to live with; they’re lonely And some other who I didn’t mention; they have to face their own matter
I’m the one in the hiding situation
I don’t know when and how will I end this hiding and live free
When you have time to live what would you like you have? When I was thinking about my life that has passing the eyes, I have seen the love I have received all its beautifulness I've missed it all I had a dream that I'll be happily live with someone that I will love him so much It'll be a good day when we go somewhere where the greeneries spread all over the path we through together smiling and holding I would like to have it If I can be with him in a beautiful countryside sky is covering us clouds are cheering us birds are chirping singing their special song the wind swirls caress my cheek my hairs the best time in my life I wish I will have that all soon.. Not making a bad decision to spend the rest of my life... // words of Gizela // inspired by Nick Drake's "Which Will" // thru How I Live Now [2013]
When you have poignant You have to try To dismiss it Don't let your mind Being controlled By your pain I know Life is so hard There are so many Bads that ripped Your soul so deep But you have To be strong To face it all Eventhough It is terribly hard I have tasted The bitter Of being a human Of being disappointed Of being embarrassed Of being sad Of being someone Who were ignored By others In my youth But I tried To stop it And not letting Them all Scrape me Inside and outside So I can win And be myself
Right now my minds is not healthy. I am in a very deep situation which makes my heart wants to brake into pieces. I actually can not hold it and wants to explode and shouts all my anger to open space. I am in the situation where I see my mother everyday in depressed because of my father never wants to understand my mother. He is now I see becomes the most disappointing person in my life. I can never understand why he did it all to my mother. He becomes the most annoying person I see in my life. I could never accept that and never happy about it. But I can not revolt him because he is my father and I do not have rights to do that because I am afraid of God. I wanted to do something to help my mother but I can not because I do not have the budget. I am so so very sad and wanted to cry but I can not because I am myself have got depressed as my mother. I am feeling the depression because seeing my mother got her depression. I am so sad, so so very sad. I am.. *sigh* I.. This sadness I could not tell this sadness I have no responsible For telling it To anyone I knew It is too embarrassing For my father I should not do that For him I do not want To make him Feel embarrassed In front of public I wish I have A personal psychiatrist For me Or for my mother Even more for my father *sigh* But I can not I do not have budget And my father is Too taking counts on every single thing *cries*
I always have this feeling Once twice keep showing Like I'm back to that thing The time when everything That happened and cling The pictures just like real When it makes me feel Like I'm in a virtual dream But my thoughts seem They bring me back there Sat and state somewhere [written by Gizela]
I feel guilty if I screw him But I feel mad if I don't I don't know what to do Sometimes I feel depressed Seeing someone I love Got screw with him Just want to kick him out of my life forever But I'm not supposed to do that Sometimes I ask myself Did she make mistake? But I don't think she was She's actually a good person But he never want to understand her I got mad at him again I wish I never met him again I tried so hard not to think about that But if he does What can prevent me? My heart beats My head pains All I want to do is despise him Once and for all Oh, I wish he's not coming close For the rest of my life He could affect so bad to me To my life To my future Just stop this! I hate you! [words by Gizela]
I know it's been a very long time I haven't post anything catchy except my last picture of idle planking job. I've been through a busy year in 2012 to 2013. I've been working in afternoon to night shift for 10 months and it really affect on my body weight. Well, for 10 months of working time 3:00 p.m. to 10:00 p.m. my body lost about three or four kilograms. I guess that's because I've been really tired. And now, I'm keeping it in shape with some light exercise like cycling, lifting dumbbell, sit-ups and push-ups, and running in place. I add eating less carbohydrates by choosing wheat, potatoes, and corn. I'm still eating rice but in less portion. I really change my habit because I want my body healthier inside and outside. I feel really grateful that since I was kid my parents didn't accustom me by eating high fat and high calories food. So, I am used to it. Now, I just need to keep my eating habit and even make it better.
I was walking down the supermarket row that day with my mom looking for something. Then a middle age foreign lady came to me asked me for something she didn't know where it was. I was in elementary school that time and hadn't have a good experience in using English for speaking but I was quiet confident that day to spoke with the lady.
When I was looking for my needs too she walked passing the row where I was and talked to me. I still remember she spoke to me in English and fortunately I understood what she meant. She was looking for something but she didn't know which row did the stuff was. But I already forgot what was she looking for because it happened long time ago and I can't remember anymore.
She came to me with a little smile spread on her face, "Hello, can you tell me where the .... was?" Then I said, "You can go there and then turn .... go to the .... row so you can find it." She nodded and smile to me means she understood and say thank you to me.
After she gone, I came to my mom and said that I was meeting a foreign lady asking for something and I could show her the way and she understood. I was very happy at that time and proud to myself because though in my very young age without any experience to talked with any foreigner, I could done that successfully. That was one of my very impressive "English moment" in my life as a kid. I could never forget that.
I'm writing to myself It's been one year and five months And it's six months to go I'm still in my own world Without no one except my parent To live with And enjoy the life I'm still not doing anything Except flying on my own dreams Still never want to leave it But still in my parent's loves And cares And guidance And live happily everyday And my God still loves me With full of joy Where I'm a bit selfish, sometimes... I must aware, I know! I still need those all 'Cause I'm nothing without them It's always better to live with all those warns In case I'm alive.
I just want to tell the world That we're all had to always grateful For everything we got
Here I am Still in the middle of life's trap I'm still jobless I wish I could get one And make my parent proud 'Cause I'm their only hope I'm the only one they had I wish I could still grateful For everything I've got Even I'm in deep minds confusing
Bless me God Bless my parent Bless everyone Bless this world 'Till we back to You Amen.
With Love, R.G.L.
Ps: It's not a death letter, it's just all the whimpering wildest minds of me that has been disturbing for this time.
[words originally by Gizela with full of appreciation in life fulfillments]
If you want to know someone who has been a fan of Harry Potter; you can find the person who writes this story. Yes, it’s me!
Hi!
As you already know me, I can say that I’m a huge fan of this serial, franchise, and everything you knew about Harry Potter.
Harry Potter has become the part of my life for about 10 years of my young age. It started in 2001 when I’m still 14 at that time. This came to my days since the movie broke a fantastic phenomenon in the world. As I knew in my country, this still yet become an exploding moment of it.
I remember at the first time I read an article in one of the most popular newspaper in my country, Jawa Pos. I read about a recent movie that has become a famous out there in many other countries in this world. This movie story told about a kid that suddenly knew that actually and along this time he is a wizard but yet nobody tells him. I read about how this movie and also the books became the most popular at that time. Especially in England where it came from and in U.S.A. Absolutely, this has become a popular thing there. Until then it said that this movie also played in my country. And immediately I checked the movies schedule in that same newspaper.
Since that time, I always curious about anything related to Harry Potter stuffs.
Year after year I passed, my life become the part of world’s history. Harry Potter and its massive phenomenon has become the part in my life for these 10 years. I always followed any news about the books, films, and the actors. I also collect that news from Jawa Pos newspapers every time it’s been reported and made it into clippings in one paper holder. You can see it if you want but it’s only for personal collections of me alongside to my others belongings of Harry Potter stuffs.
I also collected the movie magazines. Two of my favorites are Cinemags and Movie Monthly. I use to collect that until the last movies finish to be presented in cinemas. Not just the magazines, it also had lots of gifts from the magazines such as official posters, scarfs, postcards, stickers, bookmarks, pendants, and of course the wands.
Beside the magazines and some of that stuffs, I of course have all of the books and DVDs. I got it all completed for 7 books of the adventures, 7 other books for supplements and 8 DVDs of the films. It’s been many years I spent lots of money to get those things completely for my personal collections.
Besides everything I mention up there, I also and always remember anything that happened in my life inside Harry Potter phenomenon. I have passed it all since I was 14 until right now I’m 24. I will never forget and I think this still become my favorite serials from all the time I’m alive.
If I read about the life of the actors who played the characters, they are so lucky and I can feel the feeling of being a family in their life too. I knew it and I can feel it. It’s been like what I feel too in this 10 years of Harry Potter times. I’m as a huge fan always curious about how the story will be portrayed in a movie but in this fully 10 years of it comes to farewell I feel not ready to say goodbye forever. I feel like there’s something that will go forever and I will lose it as it never comes back again. I don’t know what to say…
My life in Harry Potter times has got lots of influences especially in loves and friendships. I can see how did those two important things has spread out surrounding Harry’s life, although actually he’s lonely but he has a lot of friends and second families that loves him so much and made him strong to face the world.
Bravo Joanne Kathleen Rowling! You are the most inspiring writer in my life and your Harry Potter has amused me, I will never forget anything that happened in my life as you made massive phenomenon where I live inside it. Farewell Harry Potter…
Books:
Harry Potter and The Sorcerer’s Stone
Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets
Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban
Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix
Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows
Other books:
Tales of Beedle The Bard Quidditch Through The Ages
Fantastic Beasts and Where To Find Them
The Magical Worlds of Harry Potter
An Interview with J.K. Rowling
Daniel Radcliffe: No Ordinary Wizard
Kisah Sukses J.K. Rowling di Balik Penulisan Harry Potter
DVDs:
Harry Potter and The Sorcerer’s Stone
Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets
Harry Potter and The Prisoner of Azkaban
Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire
Harry Potter and The Order of The Phoenix
Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows (Part 1)
Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows (Part 2)
[words by Gizela, mention stuffs properties of Gizela]
It's Thursday August 5th 2010, 2.30 p.m. I've just holding a book--the English Grammar book that reminds me to someone who ever taught me English and had this book too. He is Mr. Wasito, a docent who ever taught me English but his already gone now.
I remember it was in Junior High--I has an extracurricular studies of three primary subjects which are Physics, Mathematics and English.
Mr. Wasito was a very kind teacher who patients and always encourage his students. He was one of the people who always encourage me to always improve my English. He knew and said that I have a talent of English language. He said that to my parent too. I remember it was seven until nine years ago.
But now, he is not here anymore.. He has died few years ago...but I still remember him until today.. Oh...it's too sad to remember.. I was shedding my tears while writing this memory. ............
Thank you Mr. Wasito. You were one of the people who has influenced me becoming a person who understand English and made me good on writing this all although I haven't become an expert.
Do you remember when was the first time you learn English? As I remember I was learning it first time at fourth grade of elementary school. From the first time I met English I just straightly fell in love with this language. I know this language is cool and fun!
At that time, my teacher, Mr. Yohanes taught me and my friends English through school book. We've been taught about vocabularies at first. There's a lot of vocabularies that I still remember until right now. I got fruits and vegetables, vehicles for transportations, animals, colors, households, days and months, weathers, cloths, etc. My teacher also taught me about how to introduce myself and someone to others.
Fortunately for many tests my English always got good mark and I know that's because I like it so much and easy for me to learn.