Back Again

I’ve been away for so long
Like I’ve been a dead person
Who’s no one ever heard about me anymore
I lost my souls
And feels like I have gone
To another dimension

I need to get back on my feet
I need to get back to where my root is
I shouldn’t let the devil snatched me
I’m not one like it thinks it can be fooled

I’m God’s child

The Beautiful of Life

When you have time to live
what would you like you have?

When I was thinking about
my life that has passing
the eyes, I have seen
the love I have received
all its beautifulness
I've missed it all

I had a dream
that I'll be happily
live with someone
that I will love him
so much

It'll be a good day
when we go somewhere
where the greeneries
spread all over the path
we through together
smiling and holding

I would like to have it

If I can be with him
in a beautiful countryside
sky is covering us
clouds are cheering us
birds are chirping
singing their special song
the wind swirls caress
my cheek
my hairs
the best time
in my life

I wish I will have that all
soon..
Not making a bad decision
to spend the rest
of my life...


// words of Gizela
// inspired by Nick Drake's "Which Will"
// thru How I Live Now [2013]

Poignant

When you have poignant
You have to try
To dismiss it
Don't let your mind
Being controlled
By your pain
I know
Life is so hard
There are so many
Bads that ripped
Your soul so deep
But you have
To be strong
To face it all
Eventhough
It is terribly hard

I have tasted
The bitter
Of being a human
Of being disappointed
Of being embarrassed
Of being sad
Of being someone
Who were ignored
By others
In my youth
But I tried
To stop it
And not letting
Them all
Scrape me
Inside and outside
So I can win
And be myself

Fleeting

I always have this feeling
Once twice keep showing
Like I'm back to that thing
The time when everything
That happened and cling

The pictures just like real
When it makes me feel
Like I'm in a virtual dream
But my thoughts seem
They bring me back there
Sat and state somewhere

[written by Gizela]

I Mad

I feel guilty if I screw him
But I feel mad if I don't
I don't know what to do

Sometimes I feel depressed
Seeing someone I love
Got screw with him

Just want to kick him
out of my life
forever
But I'm not supposed to do that

Sometimes I ask myself
Did she make mistake?
But I don't think she was

She's actually a good person
But he never want to understand her

I got mad at him again
I wish I never met him again
I tried so hard not to think about that
But if he does
What can prevent me?

My heart beats
My head pains
All I want to do is despise him
Once and for all

Oh, I wish he's not coming close
For the rest of my life
He could affect so bad to me
To my life
To my future

Just stop this!
I hate you!

[words by Gizela]

This Old World Is Got To End!

What is the world going on these days

just makes me sick

Humanity is the major of Earth

wasn't at right anymore

Society is broken

People are getting weird and sickening

See brutality, crime, greediness, discrimination

disobeying, insulting, rebellious, misleading

are "eating" God's greatest masterpiece

that we called Earth

I wish God is coming quickly

to justify everything

because I'm tired to all of those people

Let The Almighty God' followers be safe

Salvation will coming to them †

Happy new year, everybody!

Picture source: disorganization.tumblr.com

I wish every human in the world will have prosperity, happiness, health, and tons of bless from Jesus Christ and may the world can be better.

Amen.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO EVERYONE WHO CELEBRATE IT TODAY.

MAY THE PEACE, THE PROSPERITY AND THE JOY WILL ALWAYS BE WITH US IN EVERY OUR LIFE PATHS.
GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR WHOLE FAMILY. AMEN!

warmest regards from Days of English blog and contributor

Facebook for Babies?

A new phenomenon in my life!
I saw lots of baby pictures in Facebook today! And it was growing up rapidly since few months ago.
What this is all about?
Does posting baby photos was a kind of common thing in recent days?
Wow, ordinary babies can be famous!
Jeez?!

Technology slavery

If I saw technologies development these days were so rich of easy and instant way for human to do something. Back there 20 years ago when the hasn't turned into a very different like now, I could feel that people's life at that time were so plain and done a bit more natural than in recent times.
Back there, people only have grounded cable telephone to call someone else, now people can use any modern gadgets to contact their relatives and friends. Now, people not just have a common cellphone and computer with internet connection; but more than one contacting gadgets, like cellphone (smartphone for this time) and "pad" gadgets which included Wi-Fi components which the owner can always online everywhere they can and want.


This invention actually brilliant but sometimes I always think that nowadays people get stuck in it and looks they can't pause or even stop from having all of these things work in their life, every second, every minute, every time, and everyday. It looks that those things have taken control people's mind and make them becoming its slaves.


I who only have a common cellphone and computer with internet connection these days have already felt a life being controlled by technologies; and I felt pathetic.
Now, I knew how it feels and I hope that won't happen again. But, I still disappointed to those new inventions--for example, cellphone. Maybe I was one of the people around this earth that extremely don't like types of current cellphone. I wish I still can find common cellphone types like many years ago, not qwerty, not android, not smartphone, bla..bla..bla.. just the ordinary one!
I see none of the cellphone factories today that still produce common types. They're all changed into qwerty, android, smartphone, etc..etc.. I don't like it!
Meanwhile, I just feel disappointed.

You Know My Style, I Know Your Style

These two sentences were one of my favorite quote.
I started to like saying it about a year ago. These two sentences were represent me and my friend's feelings about Kristen Stewart's style.
We both were fans of Kristen and we like her style too; and sometimes if one or both of us were styling like Kristen's, we often said that sentences.
I was the first who invent it and then I taught my friend for doing the same.

My blog's stats

Dear every people out there,
I'd like to say thank you to you all as visitors here. I've been tracking along this time and I saw that most of the visitors are looking for Hogwarts Extreme article about Daily Money. I wish I could find more useful info from Hex to be post here so people will like this blog more. Maybe I'll post it later..


For the last, I really hope you guys left me comments in posts, so I can know what's your interest here. Maybe I can post more things about what you are looking for.


Well, have a nice day everyone!

Nice keyboard

Just trying my new silicon keyboard. Actually I knew it few years ago but I just decided to buy it this afternoon and now I'm typing with. It's quiet cool but i still need to get use to it because it fells really different to touch and typing with this magic keyboard.
The store that sold it offered four different colors, black, blue, green and purple. I bought the blue one because I like blue and don't feel really want to see black keyboard at this time. It' too common.
This magic keyboard is washable. At the box, it says that this keyboard can be wash with water plus the soap. Wow,it's good!
Now, I'm still want to enjoy using it.
See ya!

Attention!

Many people have asked me these questions:
(and how many times I have to explained to them?)


"Why didn't I use Blackberry phone?"
My answer: I didn't like "qwerty" keypad.


"If you didn't like "qwerty" keypad, why didn't you buy the slide one?"
My answer: I didn't think I need it.


"Or maybe you could buy the other type you like?"
My answer: I didn't want it, okay?


BUT, I actually have my very best answers that I haven't use it to answer you guys.


So, if you still curious why I didn't want using Blackberry, I'll give the answer straightway right now and only in this blog, and if you do read this PLEASE DON'T FORCE ME TO USE BLACKBERRY ANYMORE!
Is that okay for you?


Now, go on read it..




My final answers are:
1) I will never ever want to use Blackberry because I'm not a stupid person who can be fool by those "Blackberry cellphone phenomenon" in this world wherever it is, whenever it is, whoever use it.


2) I'm tired to see lots of people use Blackberry IN MY COUNTRY (whatever happened in other countries) because I don't even think those people like not very important person (drivers, lowlifes, villagers, etc, and the most tragic is KIDS and STUDENTS) use a cellphone kinds of Blackberry in very useful way?
Haha, I don't think so!


I knew it and it's a fact that they use it JUST FOR HAVING FUN AND FOR FOLLOWING THE MODERN STYLE OF YOUNG PEOPLE THESE DAYS.


They say if someone didn't use Blackberry nowadays they are OUTDATED. Very tragic!
So, if right now in the middle of Blackberry phenomenon; I didn't have Blackberry and not using it, I am outdated??
Jeez! Please, use your common sense, man!


I do still have my common sense. I'm not an important person, I'm not a business man, I'm just ordinary people.
Don't you ever think that a cellphone like Blackberry is better be use by the IMPORTANT people?
For examples: a business man, a seller, a country government, artists, share holders, and any other kinds of jobs like that and not just KIDS?!


Okay, now I think you're getting little bit more understand.
Last words, I'm sorry if maybe there some harsh words and don't feel offend. I NEVER saying that everyone who use Blackberry are stupid people and Blackberry IS NOT a cellphone for stupid people. I only said that Blackberry is might better be use by IMPORTANT PEOPLE.


Thank you for reading.

Happy Birthday Harry Potter!

 Harry, Harry, Harry...


This is the time I've been waiting for, the final and the farewell moment of you. Your world has bewitched me for more than 10 years.


Today is your birthday--I would say that even your not real--but this is the time.


And for the extra, I'm going to watch the finale epic of the movie today (with feelings of not willing to say goodbye).


But nothing can stop this, I know Jo Rowling has decided to finish the story here though I still want to know more story about the life after you and your friends graduated from Hogwarts.


......
It's been two weeks of waiting to see this movie in my country (because of the problem between movie supplier and the government), finally I can enjoy it now.


And it's 35 minutes past ten in the morning when I write this to the time I'm going to watch the movie. It's going to be held on 1.30 p.m this afternoon, Sunday 31 July, 2011.


Well, I should finish it now and farewell Potter...


[words by Gizela]

July 10th, 5 days to HP DH P2 Premiere

It's July 10th, five days left to the premiere of Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows Part 2, but it's impossible if I can watch it in cinema. It's all because there's a problem between my country's governement and movies supplier that makes foreign fils cannot be watched in my country. There's still no way to end up this problem and this really makes me annoyed.


I've been waiting since early this year to watch HP DH P2 and this is my only wish for my birthday present from my country, but what? My country has been dissapointed me for long period and I cannot say anything more than just "I dissapointed and sigh".


And for the realization but never can heal my diassapointed feeling, I only can wait for the DVD about five months later.. that's all.

24 years old

Twenty four years old.


This has become the time for me to had have a big change. I cannot be like what I've become few years ago. I have to remember all my promises to my parent. I must not disappoint my parent. I have to change!

I'm the only one child and I have to make my parent proud of me. I must remember everything what I should do at this age. I'm not a child anymore. I cannot be like a child and do things like child.
I wish I can actualize what my parent's wanted from me. I want to show it and make them glad.


Now, this is a new period of my life and I don't want to waste it. Like my friend said, "Fight Hard".

Hey, it's July!

Hey, it's July!

Do you know that this has become my favorite month? Because there are some things that happen in this month.

First, I was born in this month and as I know July was the coldest month in a year. The air that blows in my country between June and August is the coldest and the driest one. If you realized it you must know and of course can feel it too!

Second, for this year this was the most monumental month in my life because on 15th there will be the last premiere for the massive phenomenon in this world, Harry Potter. I've been waiting for this but I also feel sad to know it because this going to be the time to say goodbye to my favorite inspiring story that already become the part of my life since I was 14 years old whereas in this July 2011 I'll turn to 24. It's been 10 years of it and I'm going to miss that so much.

But, that's all only for memories to me. I will always remember that.

Okay, here it comes July...

Life Fulfillment

Human professions are many

You live as human has to had that one

None can be differ as success or fail

All you have to understand

I see many kinds of it

Some are just usual activities

Some are for entertainment

Some are for helps

Some are really hard to do

But all of them were important

When you can’t get it

I’m sure you were confuse

Or even distressful

But when you can it

You must not forget the jobless

I ever had dreams to be the entertainer

But what leads me to

Now I’m doing what I got

I must still be grateful for it

[words by Gizela]

I wish I could say what I feel now...

I wish I could say what I feel now

But someone could not understand
And always blamed on me...
I felt so sad...
And destroyed...


In the other way I had a huge emotions about my feelings
That I still can't tell it
Still needs times to observe
But with nothing from those things done
Problems came out without compromise


I wish I could tell it now
But now I can't
I'm disappointed...


[words by Gizela]